Once again I'm back here writing. Right now for therapy, because my beloved one was supposed to play with his friend today and he never showed up, and I haven't heard from him since they were still in Borås, on their way to leave. Sometimes he really can't think, but I still love him like crazy. We went to the beach today, after playing around in the water with Evelina for a while I just relaxed with a book. 

Yesterday we went to my moms grandmothers birthday party. I swear, she'll live until Jesus comes back. She's like the cutest human in the world! And she's 90! My grandpa showed us pictures from her life. It was really interesting and fun! And I made her a drawing, she was so happy that you could almost cry~ 

We came home around midnight. I'm surprised I slept kind of well, but it's nice I guess. I miss Felix tho. Even tho we're not allowed to sleep together when we stay over the night at each others places. But it's nice having him around, knowing his just a couple of steps away.  

The wedding's not far away by now. I start to feel a little nervous, the drama is done and all I have to do is practise, me and dad are getting better on the song and I'll have to colour my hair and start thinking about make up and stuff. But it will be fun after all. It's my sisters wedding we're talking about. I want to get married to. But not now, I'm not ready. Anyways, the day I get married, I hope it's Him my father leaves me to at the altar. 

I'm making him Open When-letters. They're really cute! I'll probably write something about that later.. 

I’m going to tell you a story. A story about a little girl. This little girl has long, dark hair and beautiful eyes. She loves to sing and dance, she do it all the time. 

When she was six she started to take ballet lessons. She was amazing, star of the show. But she stopped, no one knows why. 

When she was eight she found a cat by the road. It was hurt and barely living. She took care of the cat, and it was her very own. She loved animals, at eight she wanted to be a veterinarian. 

The little girl gets older, she’s ten now. She likes to study and school is her home. She wants to be a teacher, to teach other kids what she already knows. 

But middle school ends, she’s thirteen now. She doesn’t feel beautiful anymore, and her friends are now her bullies. Everyone seem bigger and she’s a little girl. She’s thirteen and all she wants is to be pretty. 

But it gets worse, far worse. She gets older as her scars gets deeper. She gets lonelier as she cut people off. Now she’s sixteen, and se wishes she was dead. 

But this is not the story’s end.

She turns eighteen, and now she graduates high school. Side by side with her best friend. It’s the two of them, against the world.

Time goes and she studies for her final. She even found the love of her life and he treats her like a princess. 

When she’s twenty two she gets her diploma. She’s finished now. 

She turns twenty four and she finds her career. Her boyfriend proposes to her and the world is pretty again. 

Now she’s twenty six and she walks down the aisle. His smile makes her heart go crazy as she whispers ”I do.” She’s twenty six and everything seems to be just fine.

But there’s more. She’s in the hospital, and she holds her newborn daughter in her arms. The smile on her face shines lighter than the sun. She’s twenty eight and now she’s a mother. 

The little girl is all grown up. She’s thirty now and she looks back at her life. She wipes a tear and smile. All for real she can now be happy. And she takes a breath to finally say out loud; ”I’m glad that I made it.”

Sorry it's been a while again.. uhh. I've been busy. Today Felix will come over, it's been like 4 days since last time I saw him <3 So I'm just sitting here and waiting. I fixed my room the other day, got a new desk from second hand. And when I were at Felix's place this weekend my mother cleaned up my room and surpriced me when I came home! She's the best! 

This is how it went~ I got some other stuff to, I'll maybe upload pictures of it later. But now I'll try to do something productive so um. See ya'! 

Cause you're the apple to my pie, you're the straw to my berry

You're the smoke to my high

And you're the one I wanna marry 

Just some small drawings I made. I'll try to have time to write a real post later. Love you all!

Soo, today I've pretty much just hung out with my sister Emma and her fiancé. We went to the supermarket, made some cookies for le wedding, played sims and watched series. I like being with her, it's sad that they move out in a couple of months. They leave for Avesta in a week and I'll be like lonely as fuck. But it's fine, cause then it's the wedding and I'll be the maid and she looks so beautiful in her dress. 

Tomorrow we're going to Jönköping and get her ring, we're gonna stay while they're polishing them up, engraves them and stuff. It's gonna be awesome. Hihi! 

  Onee-san 30th April~

I should probably do something productive, like clean my room (it's needed) or something. But my back hurts. And I'm tired. And sad. So let's just fall asleep instead and wishing I could be in his arms all night long, and then all day, everyday. That's how I'd like to spend my life, day after day, year after year. Because you're the apple to my pie, you're the straw to my berry. You're the smoke to my high, and you're the one I wanna marry~ 

So today I stayed at Felix's place for like six-seven hours. It was nice, though I was really tired and stuff. I miss him, wuaah ;-; But I'll get to see him again soon! We didn't do very much, but idk it never gets boring anyway.

Yesterday, when we got home after the Western thingie I took some pictures of him (lying on my lap) and when I do he always does weird stuff like grimace or look away or imitate a frog or whatever. YOU ARE SILLY, BUT I LIKE YOU! <3 

  Boyfriend-chan (Kinda normal photo for once)

Question of today is, should I start writing in swedish or keep the english? I'd like to know what language you want me to update with ^^ 

I miss school. Yep, I'm a little weird (AND PROUD OF IT!) but I really miss everyone, even those who are kinda mean to me, because they're probably having a hard time theirself and I feel sorry for them. Who am I to judge people? There's no need to be mean to those who choose to be mean to you, forgive them instead. Always try to be friends, even when they deny.
I had a party for my whole class just before summer break started. It was relly nice, like everyone was so happy and yea ^^ I had prepared competitions and food and fruit and all that and everyone seemed to have fun! Happyface! 

  And there's a pic of Felix-kun falling. Heh~

I think I'll take a relaxing cup of tea now before I go to bed. I have kind of a problem with my sleeping so I got a chain blanket from my sleep therapy thinge (witch I don't even go to anymore) but it doesn't help very much anymor cause' it's not that heavy and it's to hot in my room. So I can barely use it, haha! It's fine though, It's summer break after all and it sure will be okay until school starts again. It's just one month left to the wedding now and then we're almost there! I have a meeting the 15th of August and then the next semester starts just after a few days! ^^ 

Goodnight lovelies!~ 

So we went to the Western thingie yesterday. The sun shined like idk really much and we like died of heat. And the, all of sudden, heaven opened and it rained! Like, really really much. And it rained, and rained.. and then - it rained even more! But I had a really nice time and the little shop we stayed in was kinda cozy so yeah. And when we decided to go home it was water like everywhere. But it didn't rain anymore. 

And when we came home my family had just come so happiness ^^ But now I need to get ready because I'm going to Felix so I'll see ya later!